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i don't know what i'm doing here. i should be out there running, or walking at least. i'm so affraid to look in the mirror. i don't know. everything is falling apart with my diet on top of it... don't leave me sweet desease....
i don't know what i'm doing here. i should be out there running, or walking at least. i'm so affraid to look in the mirror. i don't know. everything is falling apart with my diet on top of it... don't leave me sweet desease....
nic nowego. nie wytrzymuje. dzisiaj zjadlam. niepotrzebne blo to jedzenie. niedlugo zoj zoladek wybuchnie. a moj przelyk piecze bardzo. chce to wszystko zwyymiotowac, ale lazienka jest zaraz kolo sypialni rodzicow. nie moge pozwolic zeby sie dowiedzieli. nie tym razem... zonwu wysla mnie do szpitala.... znowy bedzie psychiatra i lezenie w luzku... dlaczego oni nie potrafia zrozumiec jaka jestem naprawde. dlaczego nikt nie potrafi zobaczyc mnie- GRUBEJ SWINI!
Don't leave me sweet desease.... don't go away... i promise i'll stay in control, i promise i'll make it up... I'm sorry in my sick mind... i'm sorry..................
I promise, I will work out more, I will eat less. I will show everybode how good i am, better tham all of them. My life may be pathetic right now... but tht soon will change... just few more pounds, just let me waste away!
I run for 1 hour today. Right now, I'm just drinking ice water thinking if i should have run for two. Now I know that. I would get skiny faster. FAT LAZY COW! YOU JUST WANTED TO SIT AFRONT OF THIS SCREAN AND TYPE THIS SHIT...... I HATE YOU. YOU ARE SO WORTHLESS! DO SIT UPS RIGHT NOW. AND LUNGES! FAST, FAST, GET OFF YOUR FAT ASS..... YOU'LL NEVER LOOSE WEIGHT AND BECOME PERFECT SITTING HERE...... GO, GO NOW....
pathetic.... one side wants to waste away, and the other tells me not to.... i know i'm worthless... I'm sorry.....
I ate a cookie.... a big one, shaped like a heart. I ate it, a whole one. whith red shugar frosting on the top. Brian brought me them. I ate one. ONE. And then another one. I drinked some water... Then went to the bathroom, and got rid of them..... I'm fat.... I'm sooooo fat.... I can't stand myself. I wish I could just fade. Fade like my own sahdow. helpless... pointless... Why do I have to be like this??????